I need to do an emergency Fundraiser but I havent a clue where to start. gofundme isn't really doing much evidently.
I didn't want to air anyof this but heres the facts and why things are taking so long right now. My mom was laid off her work cause he was injured at work and had to have surgery, while recovered she then went back and then had to leave again due to more arising health problems with the stressful enviornment there and being bullied everyday. her BP was out of control and caused both eardrums to rupture and fester into a mold, with tumors. she was facing surgery by the time I had convinced her to ask about black mold in the ear cause I'm a Google nut and I find answers quickly. we played doc hop with 3-5 docs and each one was unwilling to help get her disability going or welfare until she could get back to work. I have been the only one paying for everything since Feb. my bro lost his money at a party shortly after loosing his job due to bullshit there with past friends who were my moms and they were out to destroy her for whatever reason which seems to happen ALOT.
My mom was scheduled for surgery that could have killed her thanks to her BP being 200 over 180, ok thats FUCKING RIDICK!!...but no the damn doc said instead of signing her papers that she should go back to work which would have killed my mom slowly. now I love my mom to bits and my bro but the stress of all this has them snapping at me to fix everything. I get bitched at day in and day out and watch her cry and I can't do anything. my bro seems cold and distant and Im the only one who relays messages back and forth to either person. its nuts. I'm always paying out. rent is 890, and then hydro and water are at 200 or so each, then the net and cable is at 400 and I have to pay it off in installments of 140-160. then theres food I spent easily 300 on food for it to last 2 weeks no matter if i buy cheap or on sale. and then theres the van insurance at 85 a month and if I dont pay that then we dont have a car to drive. I spent 2000 ALONE in feb cause i had to pay rent 2 times cause the bank took the rent from mom that i just sent thanks to over draft cause she wasn't making money and the credit company wanted it and didnt even care that it was rent as she explained.
this month my rent was 600 plus 145 on the net and I could only afford 60 dollars in food. I have 29 dollars to my name and I just find out that come May 15th we won't have any power cause the bill is so damn high and no one can pay it off. Im being pushed into getting a part time job yet my bro wont seem to find a job and no amount of bitching at him does anything. Im at my wits end. Disibilty is now giving mom the run around and all the ppl she knew who were on it are one by one cut off same with welfare. she get 690 a month right now from welfare and as suppose to get 990 with the medical benefit but they said she wasnt that bad off yet thats prob my moms fault for not telling them everything cause shes embarrassed. I dont make alot right now. any payments I get in go straight to trying to live and I'm in turn suffering. I need so much care medical wise but I can't afford any of it. I've injured my back 2 times and been in hospital for it. my asthma is acting up and I can't pay for the medication I need for it so I've been going days without a dose to make it last ( im on Advair its 186 per inhaler)
I have to take care of all the animals, 3 cats and 4 small dogs and theres no way in hell we'd be able to part with the dogs, only therapy animals we have and I'd go completly insane if I didn't have my Joey with me. might be selling the puppy tho but we need to take him to the vet for his Cherry eye, but guess what!, can't afford 60+ for a visit and 40+ for treatment! ...
Im in bad shape and I just act like I'm happy but I'm not, I'm REALLY NOT. I need serious help here and I don't know where to turn, cause it makes my biz look bad that I can't work efficinatly, I'd be working so much more if I didn't have these stressers on me and my sewing machine breaking on me. I've been trying to repair it but the part wont stay on and I can't replace it and I have no money for a new one and I'm already thinking of next months rent and how Im going to do that.
cutting off things like net wont help, I wont have anyone to talk to or even get help, cutting cable we tried that but then it creates this mood with my mom cause shes the one who watches TV, and telling me to 'move out' is NOT going to fly, cause if I leave now then my mom is homeless with the amount of money she gets. plus i have no where to go anyway.
I dont know what else to offer to get some cash flow...I dont like 'begging' for 'free' money either, too prideful ><..but I'm at my breaking point and I can only be so strong. I've been crying on and off since yesterday, cried myself to sleep and Im crying right now cause I'm overwhelmed and overstimulated. Im 26 and I've started getting grey hair...
I'm still working on the commissions I have and I plan to keep going once I get through them but I just need to get over this shit hole and FAST!! Thanks for reading all of this if you did x-x I have gofundme still open, I'll post my paypal here too just in case, I accept USD and CAD, any little bit helps me out. I have been homeless before and don't wish to go back, my mom has been homeless before too and I don't want her to suffer that again either.
paypal: email@example.com www.gofundme.com/n2u9q8